| | Well it has been a while but here si something that was on my mind today...and these past few weeks. I sent it in an e-mail to a friend: I have actually been thinking a lot about what it means to be a girl/woman in today's world. I mean I think that I am really afraid to be a real woman I mean all that is woman because I fear that it is weak and weak means a guy will take advantage of it and of me, you know what I mean? I don't know if it has come from my life experiences or what, but I know that I am afraid now to truly be feminine and womanly... to play the woman so that some guy can play the man. I really am a hopeless romantic at heart and really honestly want a guy who is "all that is man" I guess... I want a REAL man... not some reflection of what one could be or what the world thinks is a good definition of one. I want a real one and there aren't very many of those around. I have found, though, that in my fear of being taken advantage of, I have thrown up defenses and have tried to play tough so that no guy would think to mess with me or to try to use me... I am afraid that I may be or become intimidating to guys and then scare them off cause I am to boyish to be feminine... ok well I don't know why I just thought to tell you those things but they have been going through my mind these past few days and I was thinking about them... I thought I'd share my thoughts with you. I was reading the Bible today, though and was asking God what He thought about it. I think that I figured out something. I was reading 1 Peter and it talks about the women of old and how beautiful they were. For a long time that intimidated me as a girl... I was like what is this God? You say that all the women of the Bible were so beautiful and I don't feel like I am. So does that mean that I am not as beloved or something? Because all of them were amazingly beautiful and I feel average. So I was talking with God about that and this is what 1 Peter 3:3-4 says. "3 Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. 4 You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God." I had always thought about this in the form of being beautiful... but God really opened my eyes, I think this morning as I realized that these women were so beautiful BECAUSE they were WOMEN and not men.... do you see what I mean? They were so beautiful because they were who they were made to be. It is like anything else in the world... let's say... a swimming pool. I know, RANDOM, but think about it. Now... There is this swimming pool in the middle of Siberia... It is frozen over more than half of the year... it is often used as a marker for where to part cars in this family’s back yard... that is about all it is good for... It isn't being used for what it is made to be used for. Now take that same swimming pool and take it to the harsh and mysterious lands of Ethiopia... Just to remind you... it is HOT there... ") So you are traveling through dessert and all and it is just unbearable... You come upon this house and it has high walls and you know it is a secure place to be...You happen to know who lives there and you enter... there, in the most beautiful and exotic yard you have ever seen, is a cool sparkling pool. Now that is what it was meant to be used for. That was what it was created to be... an oasis from the heat of life... That is what women are meant to be... God made us to be an oasis for people. He made us to be a place where they can come to and feel safe... like we are not going to threaten them or use their vulnerability against them... they don't have to be on guard around us... They can drop their swords and find rest knowing that their hearts are safe and they can rest with us. That is the kind of woman I want to be. One whose presence makes someone feel like their heart can rest and I won't threaten them but will protect them... I think I figured it out. The thing that made those women so beautiful was not that they had this color hair or were that size or had curves or didn't... it was because they were so gentle and they were quiet... a place where men's hearts could rest. I don't mean every man in an intimate way but just to rest and feel safe. Guys are really attracted to women like that... and women who are like that are even beautiful to other women... you know what I mean?
I think that women of old were so beautiful because they were so different from men. Not that men can't be gentle and thoughtful... I know plenty of guys who are gentle and kind and loving and the whole bit. I mean, though, that women are needed in the battle of life just as much as men are... no more and no less. Just like we need men who will fight... we need women who will be a place where they can come away from the fight and rest.
Hmm so I think now that I figured it out... now I have to figure out how to do it. I have to figure out how to take those things that I can put into words and learn how to put them into action. I don't really know how to do that but I guess that will be the next lesson. |
| | Posted 11/10/2006 2:55 PM - 17 Views - 18 eProps - 12 comments
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